“Abnormal.” A word I’ve heard in this pregnancy over and over again. It is a word that always strikes me as odd; as though I’m giving birth to an anomaly and not a little boy…
Just when I thought it was all over, I received a call from my clinic in CA. The nurse on the phone wouldn’t discuss my precious baby’s situation on the phone, but she said I need to return to the clinic as soon as I am back in CA for more tests. She assured me it wasn’t urgent and that I don’t need to rush, but she also said she is not at liberty to discuss my file on the phone. Something is “abnormal,” and they want to test again to uncover exactly what is going on. So I’m back to wondering, waiting, and trusting in the Lord to keep my mind from wandering into the unknown.
Being a mom is one of those jobs that has no predictable hours, it demands far more than I can ever provide, and it never ceases to bring me to the end of myself. I am daily stumped by new dilemmas in the lives of my twin 2-year-olds, constantly tired, and continually on my knees begging God for wisdom that I so desperately lack. This is no exception. In the period between waiting and meeting my littlest darling, I am being daily reminded that God is on His throne and that He cares for me.
I don’t have answers. I don’t have know what lies ahead. But I do know that my Savior has given me the grace to deal with today, and He is holding me up through every twist and turn of this journey. He has been nearer to me in these recent months than I’ve ever known Him to be, and His Word has been the sustaining food for my soul. We will be back in California in 17 days, and hopefully shortly thereafter we’ll have some results from the doctor. In the meantime I am comforted by Psalm 103:17-19: “But the steadfast love of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear him, and his righteousness to children’s children, to those who keep his covenant and remember to do his commandments. The Lord has established his throne in the heavens, and his kingdom rules over all.”
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Dearest Bekah…I continue to pray for you and this precious baby boy. Papa and I look forward to welcoming him into our family with open arms and open hearts! All three of our grandsons are blessed to have you as their mama! We love you…mom
Sweet daughter… hugging you from afar. Wishing you were close enough to pray with you in person… and knowing our Father knows best. Soon you will be back and these questions will be behind you. love you. the blonde mom
We’re praying to, with much confidence in God’s good plans for you, no matter how it appears to our eyes! Sending much love to all your family!
We are continuing to lift you and your family up during this time of unknown. The great thing we can rest in is that although we don’t know…GOD does! Im blessed by your reliance on Him, by your trust in Him, and by the comfort and peace you are finding in Him. God does draw near to us if we draw near to Him, and I am thankful that that is exactly what you are doing. Love you.
-Hollie
We continue to pray for you and your precious baby.
Thank you for sharing these words. My heart needed them today as its been a rough week with MS symptoms and kids who have needed more attention. Praying for your journey! Phil. 4:18
Thank you for a very honest writing. For lack of better words (that’s why i dont write blog), your writing has helped me tremendously lately in dealing with my situation and put my perspective in our Lord. We love you and continuosly pray for you.
Adding my prayers to the many . . . as well as my appreciation for you sharing the “journey” with others — you encourage my soul.
-Lee Ann (So. Cal)